Update

I've been taking my prozac every night and so far I guess its working alright. I am not as exhausted all day and I don't get nearly as irritated as easily as I used to which is a good thing. But the past two days I have not gotten very good sleep at all. Though part of it could be from the crappy weather we have been having. I very rarely ever take the xanax now mainly because it puts me straight to sleep. Its something I will have to discuss with my therapist along with the fact I am taking the prozac at night and that I am worried its going to cause me to gain weight. 

 

Curtis's Dentist is STILL working on his teeth. He has a 4th... or is it 5th... appointment at the end of April. They still have two crowns to do and I think something else but I'm not sure. Luckily all of this is already paid for so outside the cost of gas driving all the way to Tampa all those times its not that bad. 

It also appears that our room mate's friends and girlfriend will NOT be moving into our apartment, allowing Curtis and I to find a new place. Charlie (the room mate) broke up with his girlfriend (or she broke up with him I didn't get all the details) for a 3rd time since they have been dating for 6 months. We'll see if this break up actaully lasts or if its just going to be like all the others and they will just end up back together. Regardless if they do or not one of the guys who would have had to move in with Charlie is against the idea of all of them moving in together, and frankly I can't blame him. But of course that means Curtis and I will be stuck in that house with the room mate till the first of October. *sigh*

The weather has been absolutely horrible the past couple of days. Today we had multiple tornado warnings and I was grateful that my drive to work wasn't too bad and it wasn't pouring down rain (like it is now). All I have to do now is make it back home safely in my tiny little car as I drive across 60 hoping the wind doesn't blow me into the gulf. On the plus side I don't have to drive all the way over to the sushi shop today in this weather. We weren't exactly going to be flocked with customers anyway, though it kind of stinks cause thats hours and tips that I am missing out on. Oh well I will get to wash dishes tomorrow, and hopefully they won't send me home early. 

Speaking of sushi I have been eating it like a crazy person lately. Mainly just salmon avocado rolls but still. Its not exactly cheap, it doesn't help me save for the wedding, its just that its soooo freaking yummy!!! something about the flavor combo of those two things with the rice, seaweed, and then sesame seeds on top that makes it nearly irresistible to me. Nearly being the key word. I will not be partaking in sushi-ness tonight (especially with this weather) and the fact i don't have to serve it and be around it all day is going to help quite a bit.
 

Don't Panic, Where is my towel?!?!

So I just found out that because they are remodeling my fiance's GameStop it will be closed for around 6 months! I am freaking out, I know its early for that and all but still. He said that they will be sending him to different stores but I have this horrible feeling that he is going to be out of work. I am so worried that the money we saved for the wedding is going to have to be spent. I don't have the heart to tell him to go look for another job in the mean time but what else am I supposed to do. He has to work at the Sushi restuarant at least 30 hours a week and that will only being in 210 dollars every two weeks, its barely enough to pay all of the bills and leaves no extra money for gas or for food. I don't know whats going to happen but I am definetly freaking worried at this point, and trying not to panic.
 

Weekend Update

Well my second day as a waitress and getting full tips did not turn out nearly as well as I would have hoped. The restuarant wasn't as busy on Friday (when I was waitresssing) or Saturday (When I was washing dishes). I got just slightly more than half of what I took home Thursday. Then Saturday we ended up being so dead that they sent me home early. It was really a blessing in disguise because it meant I could relax and get all fancied up for when we all went out after work to Ocean Blue. 

That Saturday I also ended up going to Sakura's Birthday party. Sakura is 2 years old and the grandaughter of the two owners of the sushi restuarant I work in along with the daughter of Joe another waiter guy who I work with (and can't really stand). I felt pretty awkward being there and I didn't stay long because I was meeting Curtis for lunch as usual. I also saw one of the guys from High School there that hung out with the group of guys my boyfriend at the time hung out with. He got fatter, I  was amused but I also didn't feel all that great about myself because I am still not the size I want to be. Then again, I am also not doing jack crap about my current weight so I need to shut up or get my butt rolling. 

Later that night when we all went to Ocean Blue Grant who I haven't seen in 8+ years came by. Now he has never been very social so he literally drove from Tampa to Clearwater to smoke two cigs outside while we chatted and just left. He didn't come in to say hi to anyone and he didn't want a drink. I thought it was nice of him to drive out all that way but at the same time if you haven't seen me that long do you think you could at least stick around for a while? Oh well he is moving back down here to Florida so I guess I'll have other opportunities to see him. 

 

Sunday was my first full day off in three weeks. I relished in it by pretty much not doing anything other then my nails. (no those are not my tooties in the picture) I painted them a light pink with red polk-a-dots so it looks like I have chicken pox on my toes. 

Monday I took the day off from work from job one and job two is closed on Mondays so I was going to take that time to write my paper on Prostitution in Thailand but I got all of about 5 sentences out of me. I spent the better part of the day just napping and byt the end of it I felt kinda blah because I never left the house that day and all around got absolutely nothing done. I did however managed to paint the nails on my hands. I found this incredibly annoying neon pink nail polish and basically gave myself a french manicure but instead of painting the tips of my nails white I painted them pink. They need another clear coat cause they got messed up while I was sleeping and I know the minute I jump in the shower they are just going to peel off but it was nice feeling girly for once. Its been forever since I did my own nails. Part of the reason I don't do them much is because I am ridiculously meticulous and at the same time the nail polish always ends up too thick on my nails so I have to start all over again.

I am now back at the grind again but this week and the following weeks are not going to be nearly as bad. I only waitress Thursday and this Saturday and after this week only on Thursdays. I will still be washing dishes on Fridays and Saturdays and I will be on call when they need me but its going to feel nice to start getting into a routine again, who knows maybe I can finally start putting a workout into this routine and stick to it.

CHA-CHING!!!

Yesterday was my first official day of waitressing and getting my full 40% of tips for the night (while training I was only getting 10%) and talk about a difference! I mean WOW! So we had 4 guys from the New Jersey Nets come in and order a TON of sushi (they were big guys though so thats to be expected) well they also graciously left a HUGE tip! I was ecstatic. Not to mention I have never been that close to a real athlete before. I was pouring it on a little thick but I guess it worked. They ended up tipping me and the sushi bar. We later that night had three Hungarian girls come in with their two guys friends. They are the dentist to Mike so they got a free meal but they too left a great tip. Plus it was really good to chat with them. I kind of got in trouble at the end of the night because I kind of got in trouble at the end of the night because of it but I still say it was worth it. The only thing that's really been a problem for me at the restaurant is that I HATE, and I don't use that word lightly, HATE vacuuming.

For some reason I am always stuck between the two of us, being the one that vacuums. I mean the area to vacuum isn't even all that large or anything its just that I freaking hate vacuuming. All things considered though I guess its not that bad. And again the tips were freaking amazing last night. I am actually getting off of job one early so I can help out more today since we are expecting to be even more busy then we were yesterday. In total I walked out last night with $98 in cash in my purse. I am hoping I walk out with just as much tonight if not more. Granted I will only be waitressing one day a week on average unless someone calls in sick or needs a day off but still that's an extra $100 bucks in my pocket if the day is good on top of my minimum wage salary AND all pretty much tax free. ^-^ That actaully ends up coming out to more then I am making right now at job 1 which is a little scary. Though with benefits and days off job one wins hands down.

Smoking Rant

Okay so this is going to be quite the rant but I need it out of my system. 

We have a lady at work lets just call her Mrs. S and good god does she stink! I mean everyone is required to smoke outside of our office building (10 feet away though no one really follows that rule) so you would think that her clothes would air out and there might be a light wiff if you get too close. NO! the minute this lady walk on the elevator the entire elevator stinks even after she gets off. Whenever she approaches me I shudder knowing the stench is about to reach me. And then she is there and she literally smells like the bottom of an ash tray. Now I grew up in a house with my mom smoking everyday IN the house so I know part of me should be used to this but after moving out of my mom's place I guess I have just gotten used to the smell of fresh clean non smoke cigarette ash filled air. The thing that really kills me though is that she is not the only one in our office that smokes we have another lady Mrs. D who goes down 2-3 times a day to have a cig and when she comes back up she smells just fine, I mean I would have to get VERY close to her just right after she got back from smoking to notice anything. So this makes me wonder what kind of ever loving cigarettes is this lady smoking that is making her stink up the whole office. She has her own room in the office and the room even smells. The smell of smoke just attaches to everything and its terrible. I have to stop myself from gagging and still try to keep a cordial smile on my face while she is talking to me. Hard to do when at the same time I am trying to hold my breath.

*gags*
 

So Considerate :D

So last night I come home from my third 14 hour day and WHAT a surprise! There is a parking spot RIGHT in front of my apartment building. This is amazing because lately whenever I come home (at around 10:30pm -11pm) all the spots in front of and behind the building are taken so I have to go park by the office. now this isn't a huge deal the walk is short but it was just SO nice to have that spot and walk straight up my stairs for once, especially after a long day.

Well come to find out the reason that the parking space was open was because Curtis on purpose left it open and parked behind the normal spots. I instantly gave him a hug and a thank you. Its these little things that remind me just how considerate he is and how much I love him.

Workey work work of workdom

So today is officially my third day of working 8:30am - 10pm/11pm. I am definitely tired and my muscles are starting to ache a little but all in all not too bad. Both Tuesday and Wednesday were somewhat quiet. We had a small steady stream of customers. Of course I messed up here and there but nothing too big. And more importantly nothing involving money. They expect today to be slow as well since it St. Pattys day and well a sushi restuarant is not really the end all and be all when it comes to green... well green anything except for the tea maybe.

The restuarant, is saw last night, has decided to make a new sushi roll called the Tsunami roll and all of the proceeds will be going to help the people in Japan. I thought this was a great idea and I wish there was something more I could do other than just give them money but I guess every little bit helps.

Job 1 so far has been even more of a bore this week because everyone is at the health conference so there is a max of 4 people in the office. I actually did a test with a sewing pin dropped it on my desk and asked the lady who I work with if she could hear that and she said yes, so it has been proven you can hear a pin drop in this office, its THAT quiet.

While I am not too exhausted at the moment I did end up taking a nap in my car both Monday and Tuesday. I am thinking about taking another nap today but we'll see.

Today is also my third day in a row wearing a white button up shirt and after the first day I have managed to get them all stained up *knocks on wood in hopes I don't get crap all over this shirt before work*.

Tomorrow Curtis and I work together (though we won't be speaking to each other). His teeth are still bugging him which has me worried. he goes to the dentist on the 29th again so hopefully they will take a look and tell him everything is okay. He finds out about his bio exam today too and I am keeping my fingers crossed he did well. He studied so damn hard for the thing I am just hoping it proves to him the hard work will pay off. Plus all in all I just don't want to see him upset.